it might just all be a facade

Thursday, December 06, 2007;

♥ 12/06/2007 07:17:00 AM

Thanks for acting like you care
And making me feel like i was the only one
It's ~~nice~~ painful to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as i fall
And letting me know we're through>>

MY BLOODY MSN IS HORRIBLE SCREWED UP. ):
I CANNOT APPEAR ONLINE WITHOUT IT HANGING AND DYING ON ME. )': SO ALL I CAN DO IS TO SIGN IN, AND MY STATUS REMAIN AS 'APPEAR OFFLINE'. I CANT EVEN RECEIVE PHOTOS FROM WEIREN! SOBS.

Anyways, it has been quite a rushing day for me (lol. Im sure for pam and bin as well)
For me, i woke up rather early, and made my way to nus with my mum to pick up smth. Then, i bus-sed down to fairfield for fd training. (: After which, i bus-sed down to jj to settle some stuff. And then, i bus-sed down to jec, to meet pam and bin at the mrt station!
Alright, alright. I was rather high when i met the 2 girls, despite half of my day being 'rushed' thru. 'Cos this really cute guy approached me - for charity! HAHA! No, but seriously, he looks kind of cute. (: Okay, anyways. It's for the ex-convicts, and i gave $10 (not because im loaded, but simply because the min amount is 10buckaroos). Ha, i din exactly expect anything in return, but instead, i've got a (standard) plastic handmade fan, and (omg!)that guy gave me a complimentary card for Carl's Jr.
Okay, i bolded the previous sentence not becos i was elated over the fact that i've got a complimentary card. It's more of the fact that he pulled me back, and ask where was i going, handed me his card, and we even had a short chat. Haha, i dunno how to explain to y'all. But things happen in a rather quick, and comical manner. (:
We decided to head down to IMM instead of the initial plans to go vivo. Becos (#1) Cal did not join us. ): SOBS. (#2) It's pouring like cats, dogs, monkeys, and gorillas.
Mm, but then again, the day at IMM was an utter bore, seriously! No, not that the 2 girls are boring, but it's just that, the day spent was such a waste of time. ): And the 3 of us were dragging ourselves from a store to another, finding stuff to entertain ourselves with. =l

Alrights! Let's see, i need to jot down all my events and activites, before any one of them clashes. (:
Mm, my plans for tmr will be to drop by hq to pass derek money, and then (maybe) have dinner with the fairfield ~~gang~~group for dinner and to celebrate bdays! (:
Fri, it'll be fd training at fairfield, before heading home to finish watching the dvds.
Sat, project redcross love! :D And going out with yingqi? (: Anyone wanna join?
Sun, smth's planned alr! :D :D :D
Mon, another fd session atgood ol' fairfield, before town-ing with manda joa and sarah?
Tues, oh yes! The long-awaited pj gathering, dinner with 07s25! <3
As for the rest, im either too lazy to plan, or the events just haven been settled yet. =l
But well, im aiming to make this hols a fruitful, and meaningful one! I shant waste much time, and i must make use of this month i have at hand to the fullest!

/Have you been acting too strong, that you forgot how it is to be weak even if it's just for once?
Have you been acting too strong, that you forgot how to be true to yourself, showing al your naked true emotions to yourself?
Have you been acting too strong, that you realised you cant seem to recognise that stranger in the mirror?

Well, i tell you something. I have been acting too strong, way too stong, that i forgot how it is like to cry, to be weak, and i dont seem to recognise that stranger in the mirror anymore.
How pathetic.

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.